Username: It's a pretty good one because it has multiple meanings. Daze is a good word too. (4/5)

Title: This title is also rich with meaning and intention. You once could cry without knowing but now that's changed. (5/5)

First Sight: It's an okay picture but the people are so far away and there's a lot of white space. (5/10)

Your Sacrifice: Great job with archiving and updating so regularly. (8/8)

Sparkling Diamond: This is a Diva Designs and though I like most of their layouts and the style, this one doesn't speak to me. The message isn't half bad.. wishing you can go back to the days of innocence [which is written in a beautiful script, by the way] but that picture doesn't do it justice. I like the idea of the swing set on tree and a boy pushing the girl on it and they're having a good time, nothing is really bothering them and life hasn't bogged them down yet. But it just seems like those two people aren't the focus of the image, and they should be. They're too small and insignificant surrounded by the bigger tree and grassy areas. Well, the place is nice looking too and seems to be a great place where you can let go of your worries, but still... The links are organized nicely though. And the color of your scroll bar fits well. A kind of light purplish shade with a layer of brown. It just doesn't seem like this layout has a lot of pizazz. (19/25)

Guestbook: Well it's just a template. The best light blue one at least. (1/2)

Readability: The way it's arranged is very spatial and easy to read. I like it a lot. (5/5)

The Love: You title your very first entry as "Nothing Interesting." You should at least try to get in the spirit of things and seem excited about starting an online diary. I mean that's a pretty big step. And I hate to disagree with the title, but you mentioned in the entry that you cut yourself. Not something I see from a person every single day, so you are an extremely complex and interesting individual who has a lot to say. Now I want to know what kind of situation you're in to be able to do those things to yourself; or if it's just because you're used to it by now and can't stop it because it's a release for you. This is a fairly decent introduction to yourself, so I'm glad you included it. Even though I want to know your name, it is your decision to disclose that kind of information. Probably as I go through your diary, I will find out right? Unless you really are scared that someone you don't want to read it will find it. There's a lot of really heavy information in what you've written about yourself, like sexually abused, practically molested? That has to be a horrifying and disgusting experience. And you write that you hate yourself "more than words can ever describe." I find that to be unspeakably sad, because although I don't think of myself as the best person in the world, there are things about me that I like and I want you to find special parts of you that are lovable because I'm sure you are a wonderful person and don't deserve to be hated by yourself. I want to know more on why you feel that way though. It seems you have had quite a depressing life already. Aww, I'm sorry to hear about your "friends" in this entry. You're right, if they really cared for you, they wouldn't laugh at you like that. But most likely, they don't know how much it hurts you and they think you can handle it and that you brush it off. Wow, this, is a really good entry. You have such description so that I feel the things you're going through and you really tell what's on your heart; what emotions you're going through at that moment. You capture it as if it's a picture and painted your inner feelings exquisitely. I'm sorry you're feeling so terrible though. I hope it will get better and wish you many happiness.

A lot of your entries are pretty short and just say the first thing that comes to you without going in depth much. Like you write about not wanting to be fat, but don't go into the inner recesses of your mind to talk about what you're trying to do about that, or write more about your perception of yourself, physical image and such. And there are just some comments that don't seem to mean a lot to the average reader. Okay, you've written more about your thoughts on body, here although it was in a really light blue font so I had to highlight to read it. Plus, in other entries you choose a pale pink color and that's hard on the eyes too. I'm sure you used these colors when you didn't have the light background color so I can't really do much about what's already done.

Wow, this person must be really something, to have all these virtuous and deep feelings that you've written here. It was a nice description of what you wanted and sounds pretty sweet that you feel that much about her. It's a caritas kind of love; sort of spiritual and more fulfilling than lust or amore, eros.

Well, I thought you had a problem with cutting in the first entry since you mentioned it briefly. Now my feelings are confirmed here. I am sorry to hear that you are addicted to self-harming; it's definitely something I don't have a lot of knowledge of because I don't think I could do that to myself. I think I respect other people and my life too much for that. But anyway, the first step to overcoming a problem is probably admitting it and now you're not in denial so you have something concrete to deal with. Oh it's too bad that the only person who knows your secret, can't really handle it. That's sort of understandable though, not everyone can stomach that sort of thing. I'm glad you realize how important friendship is though. If I knew you, I'd want you to feel comfortable talking to me and you wouldn't have to worry about burdening me. I can take a lot. Oh it is wonderful to hear that you know you will be okay. Or are you just trying to be strong and put up a front?

Well, you certainly don't have a good view of yourself so I guess when you say you hate yourself you really meant it. I'm sorry to hear you have little confidence but I know what you mean. Sometimes I don't have any in myself either, but you have to at least try. It's so sad that you believe no one understands you. I really want you to know that I can relate to the stuff you're writing and I want to help you, but you have to stop pitying yourself and realize you shouldn't fool yourself like that. You do a great job describing how you feel at times though, especially when it's a dark and depressed time. You have an incredibly different life than me and it's really interesting to look into other people's worlds. It seems like the biggest enemy in your life is your self perception and the way you see yourself in the world. Also the manner in which you respond when you're feeling down.

Ooh, this is magical and pretty, sparkly. How did you make the background like that? I love the twinkling stars.

Wow, you have amazing and wonderful imagery and pick the best words to pierce someone's heart, like here. You do a great job in describing your emotions. And when you talk about your friends, that's interesting too. I'm glad you have some people in your life that can help you through your journey. And I just wanted to point out that it's not a sin to be jealous. I'm sure most of us has felt this way in the past, by something or other and though it's not a fun emotion to go through, you're not a bad person to think that way. Wow, it seems you have a lot of mood swings. From happy to be around people, to sucidial thoughts. I think most of that rests on what you think of yourself. You have to stop that dangerous and harmful thinking! I agree that it's horrible and a very dark thing to be alone though. Loneliness is not something I enjoy either. It seems like you're drowning at the end of June. I don't think I've known anyone with as much self-hatred as you. That's such a destructive way of living life. I know I wouldn't be able to go through it if I had to deal with those thoughts everyday. Well I want you to be strong and enjoy the little things; savor them.

Even though you think it was a huge mistake to tell your mom, you must've felt something to actually pour out your heart like that. It must've been the right moment and you had to say it before you burst so I'm glad you had someone to talk to and hope you get the help you need.

Though some of the entries seem like they would be extremely shallow and just not interesting, most of what you have is amazingly intense and you definitely have a lot to say. You're so good at writing about your emotions and what you're going through innerly. The thought processes and your focus on reflection and self image is tight and really interesting. You definitely use this diary to write whatever you're feeling and it's wonderful that you can put your soul out there. You admit and confess the things you do in here and that's huge. You're real and an extremely interesting individual. And an individual who is obsessed with every thought she has and analyzes a great deal which is good because this is a way to find yourself. There's a confessional and personal style to your writing that really brings meaning as I read your entries. You certainly know how to express yourself, and without having to use many big words or sound pretentious-- you just write for yourself and it's wonderful.

You mentioned that you wish you were a 9 stone, so does that mean you're living in the United Kingdom somewhere? It seems like you know the calorie count of almost everything you eat. That's kind of fascinating in a weird and almost scary way. Though I'm sure many people think this way whenever they eat something too.

You're such an intense writer. Seems like you've lost a lot of weight in the past few weeks. Congratulations on that! I'm so sorry to read this You seemed so totally ready to give up and it's really sad to see people in this position. You go through so much pain and self loathing! And a lot of mention of suicide.. Finally, you felt safe, secure here. I wish that would happen more for you. It's horrible that, that moment only happened briefly and was a singular incident.

No, no, no this whole cutting business has to stop! It may not be that painful because you're used to it, but it's not a good thing to continue because if you feel it doesn't hurt, you'll just do it more and more, deeper and deeper and one day it will really be the end.

Oh, so you're in love now. That's interesting. I was wondering when you were going to write more about that. Was looking forward to it, so here it is. It's very beautiful and makes me feel warm and cozy inside. It's amazing all that you're feeling for her and the way you are alive when you speak about her and when you're in her presence. I'm glad you have her in your life.

Yes, that's true it definitely would be best if you could feel better on your own and not have to rely on tablets. I'm sure that someday that will happen for you. But don't rush it, if you need pills to help you right now, keep going with it.

I noticed something, your entry titles *have this* and I like the way it looks. I think for others I might be annoyed by it but with the kind of titles you have, it fits.

Anyway, it's great that you're in a relationship. I like reading about it. You always write so much about your feelings and emotions and I feel like I know you so intimately. You're just so good at expanding on everything and letting your views be known; the descriptions of relationships and how you feel about each person is great and nicely detailed. I really like it when you write about the love relationship you're in. It's so peaceful and lovely.

You mentioned in one of your entries when you didn't have much else to say that you have a boring life. It seems like there are plenty of people who color it and you have many interesting relationships with others. I like reading about it all. Like that entry all about Haley; really detailed and good story.

I like most of the pictures you have here. The one of the eye is really beautiful.. You have a gorgeous eye! And your cat is too adorable! What's his/her name? Oh my goodness, I can't believe you think you're ugly or anything like that. You have the silkiest hair and such a cute smile. You really have to learn to like how you look, girl! Though the caption should probably be "My sister and me." (47/50)

Grammar: A few mistakes but overall not bad. (8/10)

Glitter: Pictures-- they look great!, reviews, bio, lyrics, poems, 100 facts [don't worry, I'm still a virgin too =], quotes from your diary, cast, tons of diary rings, rate me, fans, surveys. (14/15)

Extra Credit: One because you've grown so much and been through so much, one for the awesome writing parts, and one because I feel for you. (3/5)

Lasting Impression: I'll probably remember it. (6/10)

Will I Come Back?: I'm not sure. Perhaps once in a great while to check up on you. (5/10)

Total: 125/160

Number of Entries Read: I'll see if I can read all of them.

Favorite Entry: There are a lot of good ones, but here are some that I especially liked: Here and this.

Favorite Quote:My eyes are filling up with salty tears, but why? I used to cry a lot but the harsh words of certain people has enabled me to control my emotions a little better, and hold back my tears. I'm wrapped up tightly in a cursing ball of sheer deteste. I can't stand myself.. the way I look, the way I speak. It's so hard to explain. I can just feel such intense fear, as if I'm a small child trying to escape from an abusive household. I sometimes feel like I could cry for eternity, and just allow my problems and feelings to flow out but I can't. It's all stuck and locked tightly inside of me, and I just feel like the ONLY way I'll EVER be free is if I kill myself. I know it's the coward's way out, but I feel it's the only way. I'm all mixed up inside, emotions and feelings are swirling around deep inside, and as the blood trickles down my wrist, I feel a little more secure...

I'm sleeping at Emma's tonight so I can enjoy the beauty of sleeping in her arms. I love the way she holds me, easing my pain and releasing me into a world of freedom and tranquility. I wake up to find myself lying next to this woman, who is beautiful from the core. She has so much warmth; such intense love and affection that she shares with me. I love being wrapped in her arms, like she is my blanket. She comforts me, and makes me feel special.

Comments: You use this diary the way it should be used.